HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

MY BABY IS ONE!!!!!!!!!!

Baby and daddy on her birthday

Mommy and her birthday girl!!!

She's so cute!

These pictures are out of order and I don't really know how to work blogger all that well so I will just explain. Sadie was supposed to go in for surgery to fix her little belly button this last Thursday (Aug. 26th 2010) It was rescheduled because the Surgeon had to do an emergency liver transplant so it will now be on Sept. 16th 2010. Which is good because her belly button is so much a part of her that we weren't quite ready to say goodbye to it yet. So here are a few before pictures.

My happy girl! This picture doesn't really do it justice.

We had a birthday party for Sadie a couple weeks ago which was so much fun! This adorable cake was made by my good friend Jen who is AMAZING!!! Thanks Jen you rock!!!

This was taken in June, but I think its cute!

She got so excited about all of her super cute clothes and way fun presents! Thank you everyone for your love and support!

Busy with one of her toys!

Love those baby blues!!!

What's your secret?!

Okay so....

I was never really into scrap booking, or homemaking growing up.

While some girls were threading a sewing machine: I was threading my softball cleats.

While some girls were throwing a pie in the oven: I was throwing a grounder to first base.

While some girls were focusing on hanging a picture straight on a wall: I was trying to make a straight line while marching, and playing my flute.

While some girls were learning all these cool techniques to make a house a home: I remain clueless.


So please, tell me your secret. How did you learn to put this color, and that color together and make it look so cute? And how did you learn to make that yummy dinner? And how did you learn to use a sewing machine without jamming it or breaking a needle? And how did you learn to reupholster furniture of crying out loud?!

Is it some skill that you are just naturally born with? Or do they secretly take you to some other world for training on how to do all of these things, that no one bothered to tell me about?!?!?!

So please: what is your secret?!

The Goings On

When I first started this blog I told myself I would blog at least once a week... Yeah that didn't happen. So I am finally updating for all of you who have looked at my blog with disappointment the last 2 months or so. Well I don't even know who reads my blog or who cares to read it but nonetheless here is a little glimpse of what has been going on in our lives... I wish I could post more pictures, but I am running out of time and blogger isn't wanting to work for me right now. so here you go:

We went on our annual river rafting trip with my family and had a great time spending time with them and splashing around in the COLD water!

Sadie got to go on the "kiddie run" which I think she enjoyed! She just wasn't a big fan of her life jacket!!! Sorry baby, its a must! And once we got on the water she was fine.

And of course we went to see the midnight showing of ECLIPSE!!! It was by far the best so far and we had tons of fun goofing off, making funny faces for the camera, and playing games!

The whole gang!

Blue Steel!

In June we got to go to Vegas with Corey's family. They have a timeshare out there and we got to join in on the fun! Here is us on the roof of the Marriot we stayed at.

On the strip

It was fun but long days for Sadie

On the roof again

The View from our hotel. We were seriously right off the strip! you can see Excaliber in the top left of the picture.

And of course we have to post about the person you really want to see. Just the cutest little red head in all the world!

Check out THAT bed head!

Sadie is 10 months, 3 weeks and 3 days old! And believe me I want to keep her little as long as possible! I can't believe her first birthday is next month! She just battled pneumonia and came out on top and she is doing great!!!

So tired!

She decided that the way she wants to tell us that she is full is by rubbing her face... this doesn't work so well if you have a spoonful close to her mouth!

She has 10 teeth, (1 year molars are coming in strong)

Her current favorite hobbies are crawling around like a mad woman and pulling herself up, pulling everything out of her diaper bag, and mom's wallet, furrowing her brow then raising her eyebrows and giving you a big smile, waving (when she feels like it) and splashing around in her tub or pool!

She got a new car seat a few months ago and seems to enjoy it as much as a baby likes a car seat :S.


Favorite foods include: yogurt, graham crackers, puffs, grapes, potatoes, and of all things: PICKLES!!!! She loves pickles!!

We cut her hair a few months ago to get rid of the mullet look. I'm surprised how well it turned out! and her hair is just getting longer and longer!!!

So that's our life currently! Hopefully I can do better at keeping up to date!

50th post!

Wow! 50! I didn't think I had that much to say.

Well, forgive me but today I am bugged. I'm just lacking something. Patience mostly. I just have this icky naggy feeling irritated feeling in my chest. You know the one that you feel like you have a huge weight on your chest and your heart rate increases. I am just really bugged.

I know I should be nicer, and more patient, and have a better attitude about things.

But it really bugs me when people go back on what they say. I try to do what I can to live up to my commitments. I try to be dependable. I hate it when you can't count on people. So I ask that you please please don't make promises that you can't or won't keep.

I do not understand why people feel like they have to have power over other people. Why do people have to show off what they have. Why does it make people feel better to put others down?

UGH! I am so bugged!!!!

I have noticed that I tend to get tired of places easily. We were in our old apartment for 2 years. And have been in this apartment for only a year and I am so done. I don't want to be here any more. I just feel so unsettled. This isn't home to me. Its not a bad place. We have a good amount of space for a good price, but I just want out!

I have been thinking about why that is...

I just want to be done with this whole part of life. I want to be out of school I want to be somewhere else! I have never lived in one state this long in my life. Can we say CABIN FEVER!!!

RARRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunshine!

So today I was driving to work in the rain. Rain so hard and heavy that I thought it might break my windshield. And I started thinking about the weather. I really like rain! I mean I don't particularly like getting wet, but I love the sound of it against my window. I love the cloudy sky, I love how green and clean everything looks after the rain. Rain has to be my favorite type of weather.

But then I was thinking about other things in my life the I love. Things that bring me sunshine. (I find "sunshine" a more appropriate word for happiness than rain... just one of those things I guess) Some really sweet simple things that just make me smile. So I thought I would make a list so maybe on my not so happy days I can look back on it. (no particular order)


1. a good movie that I can watch over and over again that I don't get tired of

2. songs that you just can't help but rock out to

3. singing at the top of my lungs in my car where no one can here me

4. sleeping in

5. waking up in the wee hours of the morning to leave on a trip

6. spiritual songs that give me goosebumps

7. the sound of my dad's deep, guttural, genuine laugh when he is watching a silly movie, or gets embarrassed, or embarrasses my stepmom :)

8. when Corey laughs at something funny, and I don't find it as funny, but I end up laughing because he found it so funny

9. singing or playing the piano with my sisters

10. quoting movies with my family (usually they are the only ones that know what I'm talking about)

11. when Megan and I check with each other to see if we did something funny

12. when Sadie gets excited when I walk in the room

13. the look on Sadie's face when she tastes something new that she isn't too sure about

14. memories that make you laugh just thinking about

15. Melissa's "Stuart Impression" (she knows what I'm talking about)

16. Temple initiatories

17. The running man

18. my sister's and I performing Snow White

19. tickling Corey even though he hates it

20. a billing cycle at work that doesn't require any fixing (doesn't happen very often)

21. text messages from Corey telling me he loves me

22. friends that I can share memories with

23. conference parties

24. ballroom dance

25. super late nights when you are so tired that everything is funny

26. laughing so hard you almost pee your pants (or sometimes do pee your pants)

27. the sound of a mens choir

28. being super warm inside my covers when its really cold outside

29. spending a whole day at IKEA

30. watching Sadie become more and more independent

31. my motherly protective instincts

32. when the scale says even one pound lighter

33. Novocain and laughing gas

34. giving Sadie a mohawk

35. the way my hair smells after I get it done

36. good hair days

37. battle wounds from a good softball game

38. feeling short when I stand next to Corey

39. the big splash of water in my face when I'm river rafting


anyway... I could go on and on but I don't want to bore anyone.
I hope you have sunshine on cloudy days!

No door mat here so please wipe your feet before entering!

The title of this post may seem a bit strange to some, but not to others. It kind of depends on who has heard me vent recently, so I apologize for anyone who is tired of hearing this.

Today I was thinking about my little girl. How when she was first born, I wasn't very coordinated with giving her a bath, holding her with one arm, feeding her...etc. And now, everything seems so much easier. I have gotten the hang of it. When she was first born, the "bond" wasn't there. I didn't feel like "every other mom" where it was just an instant connection. I had a hard time with it. I looked at her more as something that was preventing me from sleeping, something that cried a lot, more of a burden than a blessing.
Now before I start sounding like the worst mother in the world I do have to put a disclaimer on this and say that I feel quite the opposite now. I love my baby more than anything! I don't mind (even though I do like my sleep) getting up with her at night. If Corey does, I feel like I have missed out on something in her life. I wasn't a part of it. Sometimes the crying and whining does take a toll, but it doesn't bother me as much. And like many people have told me, but like most people, I didn't believe it until it happened to me, I don't notice her "talking" during Sacrament, or Relief Society. So I apologize to anyone that has heard Sadie and has been bothered by it. It truly is different when it is your own.

Anyway that was a long tangent to get to what I was going to say. I was thinking about how my love for Sadie has grown, and along with that my mothering instinct to protect her. I am momma bear and I will protect her from anyone and anything.

So the reason for the title of my post. There have been somethings going on in my life lately that have truly tried my patience. They have left me more worn out than a lot of things. Trials that I truly feel like I don't have the strength to overcome. But you know what... I do! This experience has opened my eyes to things that took 20 years (that makes me feel old! :( ) to finally see. And you know what I decided? I am no longer going to be anyone's door mat!!!! I am a firm believer that we knew the life that we were sent here to live and experience. I also believe that it is up to us to make the best of it. I don't believe that we should just "live with it." WE are responsible to come out on top!
Many people have probably figured this out long before I did, but there is no way to progress if you continue to let people step all over you and allow their toxins in your life. I will no longer surround myself with people that are poisonous. I have my little family that loves me and cares about me! I have family members that I matter to and that matter to me! I have friends that are the best friends anyone could ever ask for! I will no longer have relationships with anyone out of obligation! I will have a relationship with you because I want to! People love, people laugh, people have joy! People are not meant to be bullied, people were meant to have feelings and to inspire others in good ways, and to lift others up! Not tear them down.

I will protect my baby as best I can from poisonous people. She will know that she matters! She will know that she is important to her mommy and daddy and all the people that love her! My job is to protect her and to give her the tools to protect herself. I will do the best I can to do that!

Sorry for the long rant, just needed to get that off my chest.

Thanks for listening!

Catch Up!

Okay so it has been a little bit and Sadie has just grown and grown and grown!

So forgive me but I have to brag about my cute little girl!!!!!


So... guess who turned 6 MONTHS!

I love those adorable big blue eyes!!!
This is Sadie's cute little friend Rex! He is so sweet and fun! His mom Heather babysits Sadie a couple days a week so that I can go to work, and I watch him when she needs me to. Its been so much fun!
And this is cute Rhett! His mom also helps me out and he comes and hangs out with us sometimes! I hope its okay with them that I put their pictures up. We love having them around and thank you SO MUCH Heather and Jennifer!! You are LIFESAVERS!!!!
She looks a little tipsy in this shot but I love it! Pretty much anything that wasn't meant to be a toy is a toy: paper, magazines, necklaces, water bottles... the list goes on and on...
I went through her room the other day and I found her newborn diapers... all I have to say is :(
I tried to be artsy fartsy in a few of these shots. P.S. She has a herniated belly button. No worries she is just fine. Thats just why it may look a little funny. And believe me some people kind of wondered but she has girly parts! She just may need surgery someday.
:)
Her first time spoon feeding... it started out well...
But this is usually what happens... followed by crying and spitting and crying... so any advice would be appreciated!!!!!!
Daddy was watching her this day..................

On a side note:

Sadie has a new cousin!!!!!!!!!
Corey's brother Jacob and his wife Marina welcomed Cameron James Ostler on March 22, 2010
7 lbs 3 oz.! and oh so CUTE!
If you notice, I'm holding Sadie's hand. She didn't quite know what to make of this new little person that had her Momma's attention so she went for his head a couple of times. Its INSANE the difference is between a newborn and a 6 month old! My baby isn't a baby anymore! SAD DAY!!
Corey with his new nephew.
And there is the happy family!!! Just 5 days shy of their 1st anniversary and they are a family of 3!!! Congratulations you guys!!!!!!!!!!

In Other News:

The red cross calls me constantly for blood donations. I have made appointments but for one reason or another I didn't make it. Until today. The guy messed something up and I got a hematoma... which means I started bleeding outside of the needle. We kept going to see if I could fill the bag and it just got too painful. So here is the bruise today... we will see how it gets in the next couple of days.

Married Musings

Wednesday night:

Me: What movie do you want to watch?

Corey: I don't know pick one

Me: Romancing the Stone?

Corey: No

Me: Indiana Jones

Corey: No

Me: Robin Hood- Men in Tights

Corey: No we've watched those too much

Me: well what do you want to watch?

Corey: I don't know... Lets watch Sleeping Beauty!

.... hee hee hee

Spoon Feeding...

to sum up...................



UGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


the end

5 Months! and 11 days

Its really sad how long it has been since I have blogged! Not a lot of stuff has really been going on except that Sadie has just been growing and growing. Its so fun to watch her learning. And its totally crazy how it seems like 1 day she doesn't quite understand how to do something and then the very next day... she's a pro!


Here are some pictures of my girl:


Mommy had fun with her hair that day ;)

She got her first tooth the first part of January! Followed closely by her second tooth right next to it a week later! Baby girl was such a trooper and just sucked extra hard on her pacifier and wasn't really fussy!

She has also developed quite a grip and knows exactly what her hands are used for! If you look at Daddy's ear and see how red it is turning it may give you a clue how good her grip is.
She is fascinated with Mommy's toothbrush. Every time I am holding her and brushing my teeth its kind of a fight as to who has control of it.
She is starting to figure out that she can be independent at her feeding times with a little help from Mommy and Daddy putting her hands on the bottle but then she takes it from there.
It may not look like it here, what with the blanket and all, but she is SITTING ON HER OWN!!!!!! This last week she really got the balance down! We are still working on going from a laying down position to a sitting position but she is doing so well!

P.S. About a month and a half ago she learned how to roll over from her back to her tummy over her right shoulder. But I think she is not as thrilled with that as we are. She only does it when she feels like it ;)

We are so proud of our healthy, strong baby girl! Its so exciting that she is just thriving and learning everyday! At the same time though I'm kind of sad that my baby, even though she is still a baby, isn't such a "baby" anymore. She isn't teeny little anymore... :( But we couldn't ask for a sweeter, happier, cuter baby in the whole wide world!!!

Happy 5 months Baby Girl!!! Mommy and Daddy love you SO much!!